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Yah yah yah..
I don't know what should I do. I'm just feel very tired with everything in my life...
Anybody can answer 1 my question. So easy question.... When I can feel free and be my self again? Just it....
Maybe this is like a crazy question, but it's from my heart. Why I must feel this? Why just me feel this? Why me? There's someone beside me, why don't her? Why me? Why always me? Why everything that I do always wrong, always false, always always always me?? Why I can't say what I feel? Why I can't say everything such as I'm not in this place? Why I can't feel comfortable like I'm in another place and with another people? So different... Such as be a different people... Just like a trash.....
How long I must be a different people like this? So tired...
Maybe 4 years again I must feel like this.. ohhhhhh God.. Give me a power.
Hmmm, maybe just a miracle that can make me strong to do all of this. So long time, so long, so tired, so hate, really really hate all of this. Really hate myself. Don't know what should I do now. Cry? That's not enough! You know how much my tears that ever fall because it? Such as not important again in my life! Really not important and just make a trouble!!! Like a troublemaker.. hahahaha
And now I know that I can be a different girl when the situation like this...
Really difficult to smile when your heart is broke you know..
So easy to speak but so difficult to do.... :')